私の崩壊した英語を参考にはしないでください。書きたいことを書いています。ご了承ください。

 I don't care about what my readers think by reading this.
My English skills are not good, I know, then my circumstances are also too bad for me, I got it now.
 What did I do? for love? for me? for him? for my family?
All of these are still be nothing by my bad action.
 Then what the matter? about me? about him? for him? for my family?
All of these matters are for my life.
These not only good things also bad things, are reflected my voices, action and my feelings. They began to come out and suffering into my bottom of heart. My feelings and any of my passions yes and also my little money were gone into my Love(named). Like that my original characters named "Fanatic", yeah now is my feelings and my passions and also my capability of earning money. Oh, I just remembered!! In fact, I cannot work by my disabilities, but it doesn't matter, so my lovely boyfriend taught me "you can do whatever you want to!!" That's surely right. I just remembered what I did in this 6 months. I lived by myself. I worked at certain company. I devoted my time, feelings then my love love love to my sweet boyfriend. Do they have any lack things?? oh… That's so clear That is the Little Money hah.
 My feelings are not cured cause I still can't get any messages from him. Is this "Fanatic"? oh… probably I misunderstand its word meanings… sorry for that, due to my pooooor English. hahah. It's kidding me. I need some painkiller for fighting in this my worst situations… I don't think about it about them anymore… It looks like named suffer shame by interviewer man (so stupid man) who told me "please come yesterday" So, my joke cannot be laughed out, but please be feel at ease. I'm a good liar.