I'm experiencing grief again over past manipulations due to trauma. I said goodbye to my mom on Mother’s Day. I need to live as a masculine person if I cannot be the man she thought.

Also, I said goodbye to all of my intimate relationships afterward, but I have them under control because of my trauma caused by my mom.

I completed my Reiki Teacher training today, and tomorrow will be the final day. Because of that, I had to kick her out of my life and brought Reiki into the space she once occupied in my body.

My new life as a Reiki healer is for healing people who have experienced similar kinds of trauma and for healing myself through helping them.

Finally, I want to say goodbye to all unfair relationships in my life and in the world, for the sake of all of us.

For the beginning of my new life, I bought a beautiful turquoise collar for my sub, symbolizing consensual, fair, and healthy relationships.