I once had a revelation that our life is actually fabricated within a game simulation, and that players are controlling us from "above". This realization didn't really change the way I viewed daily life, but I used this as an excuse to forgive awkward or embarrassing events -- maybe my "player" controlling me just wanted to be entertained, right?

I only casually think about life as a simulation, but recently I heard about the documentary "A Glitch in the Matrix" on Netflix. The trailer seemed to match my thoughts, but as I was watching the documentary, I had to turn it off halfway. Unfortunately, the narratives provided in the film were strictly from white males with a superiority and savior complex (that of which I cannot stand). The key narrative was that everyone around them was an NPC (non-player character found in video games) and that they were the only ones aware that they're in a simulation. My belief is far from this, as I don't view myself as "higher" than anyone else. Instead, we are all simply stuck in this kind of life, because this is the world we have been created in.

In cases like above, where we might think "It's a glitch in the matrix!", maybe the players controlling us simply thought it'd be funny to customize their characters to look the same, and then had them all ride the same bus.

(There's a new movie called Free Guy with Ryan Reynolds which goes on this topic as well, but I haven't had the chance to watch it yet!! I hope it's really interesting)

Anyways, my only wish with life being a simulation is that we can have access to the "Replay" button. I don't necessarily have regrets in my life, but I definitely do want to go back and relive life differently. This doesn't only pertain to the past though -- I also want to live multiple future lives. Even with how the world is now, there are many paths I wish to take. I wish to be a pâtissier, working around the world spreading the deliciousness of authentic French pastries. I wish to be a software developer and make a lasting impact on the way we interact with technology and the world around us. I wish to manage a coliving community (i.e. sharehouse), where I will encourage people of all ages and backgrounds to get along and share their culture. I wish to be a zoologist and spend my days surrounded by all sorts of animals -- my main source of happiness. I wish to be a farmer and grow organic produce and humanely care for the farm animals. I wish to be a teacher and spread the knowledge of language so that we aren't restricted by communication with the people on our planet.

There are many things I wish to do, but my anxiety tells me that I won't have enough time to do them all. I am forced to choose a path based on trivial variables. One side is telling me to pursue a path that will make me rich so that I can enjoy life's luxuries. Another side tells me to hop jobs every year to experience everything I want, and to just figure it out on the go when I'm low on money. I feel torn apart inside with my many different sides arguing for the top spot.

This is why I wish to have access to the "Replay" button. This way, I'd be able to live out one of my desired lives, and once complete, I can simply hit "replay" and start a new path. For all I know, maybe this is the default setting for after we die?