"Full Love !" Niko gave the title for this photo that I took.                                     

I tried to hide my feelings from Niko.
but It protruded.
I was almost running at the mouth.
and my eyes became hearts.
If I had a tail, It was wagged absolutely.

another side,
It was the day of celebration that Free myself from restraint by ex-bf.
It was so long time.

Violence, Threat, Control, Humiliation, Lie, Trap,
Violent language, exploitation.....

He broke my precious things many times.
My bear, T-shirt, and my heart or policy.

I sometimes fight against him. sometimes resist strongly.
but then he became more violent. and...

and I almost aware of that system.
This situation is maybe my choice.
so, I wanna get out of this bad link.
My ex-boyfriend seemed to wanna keep.

Anyway, He got full control over me for a long time.

I often talked on the cell phone with ex-bf.
Every time without exception we got into a quarrel.
I don't wanna put a cell phone on my ear,
so I always speak via speakerphone.
I think Niko often heard our quarrel voice.

moreover, Boss always said things that rub me up the wrong way.
I've reached my limit. (I have a low boiling point;))

Niko came out of his room, just when I threw a plastic chair to Boss.

soon I went back to my room, and shut the door roughly,
and also closed and locked my mind.

A little later, I went to the toilet.
Some people were out there.
but I didn't see anyone. and so angry yet.
(I came to use my room's window after this matter.)

Niko found and called me.
"Kullu, Come and Sit."
and He knocked on his next chair.

I couldn't answer him.
I just said "Thank you, but...."
and went into my room.

Anyway, I wanted to break up with ex-bf.
Otherside, I got to like Niko day by day.

I got Manikalan attack again and very tired.

The boss always wanted me to don't move from his around
even while He writes an email to his gf.
Very F men.

At that time, about me, I could see only Niko.
I thankful to ex-bf's gf to be my ex-bf's gf.
It was my first time that I feel thankful to ex-bf's gf.

'though, I was still very angry at ex-bf.
I said to Boss in my mind,
"I don't wanna be here with you now.
You should do it alone."

I got out and smoke 1 cigarette.
Niko came to me, and said "give me 1 cigarette"
and we smoked together.