I remember one year ago I strongly hoped for change

Although I had never imagined back then
I was brought to a whole new place
I've been undergoing this transformation that is shattering my preconceptions and approaches to life I believed
I've been passionately enjoying this process of unlearning and learning
I am free from some of the restrictions I've always had
And I'm humbled and grateful for everything

Yet the reality still confuses me
Leaving me with a lot of questions about something I cannot even describe well
Mental walls I want to break
Changes I want to make
I'm wandering between what should be done and what should not be done  
What I want to do and what I don't want to do
I'm desperately trying to seek answers in what I see and touch

And I sigh
For how far I need to go
I know the destination is so high up, yet I don't know where the destination is
And I can only randomly try to start climbing up...

But I know
That I don't want to go on with the well-paved road that I've chosen all my life
I just didn't see there were numerous paths to reach the peak
And that there were so many routes that may not bring you to the top
but offer breathtaking views on the way

In front of me, I don't even see any trail
I just follow the way the birds lead me
And when they disappear in the wood
I will let my curiosity take me somewhere new

What I need is some courage and strength to enjoy and carry on with the journey
Do I ever attain the change I desired?
I still do not have the answer
All I can do is take a step forward each day
Even when I am unsure
Even when I do not know