Well, I am, actually. 
I am weird and insane. 

But to your surprise, 
there are a few who do not think I am weird at all. 
Do you want to know who they are? 
They are the young Gabriel, Herr Lange from Stuttgart, Dead Paul, Rosie Lou, and, and, ….. oh, the short-pants Masa. And a few more, a few more, there should be. 
Akiko-san, ……hmmmm, not too sure. Perhaps. 

They are wonderful.
With them, you don’t have to do anything. 
They don’t care what I am and they just enjoy me the way I am.
And I enjoy them, fully, too. 

It’s a pity that I can’t see them too often, as they all live far away. 
Masa and Rosie, not sure if they still remember me.
Hope they do and think of me once in a while.
Once a year, when they think of who to send New Year’s cards to. Maybe. 
Herr Lange.
He says we are one. I agree, we may be one.
But for all that we are very apart. 
We haven’t actually seen each other for years now. 
Dead Paul is a real beauty.
He was a lot crazier than me. Very, cutely odd.
Natural and trying-hard type artist.  
I wish he were alive and walk with me in the forest. 
I wish he was in our house and we'd get to see him draw and paint. 
And my treasure, Gabriel. 
He visited me here in summer and we had a big adventure to Austria. 
Do you remember, the first night, he slept  on this couch.
He gave you the dead, dry fly and you ate it in one bite.
He made a song for you.
You looked excited when he sang it to you.
You liked him, right? 
I like him, too. He’s such a sweet, fun, fragile thing. 
I hope he’s happier in his family and his new classes now. 
Akiko-san is a bit different. 
She is not weird herself.
She is like, Earth 🌎 . 
Nice, comfortable bed you would sometimes like to go back to.  
But you have to be careful. 
She is not always there. 

We are happy together and sad together. 
Well, actually, we are sad, not together. 
Our sadnesses are different, individual ones.
But we understand each other’s, I guess. 

The problem is, since I can't see them very often,
I sometimes wonder if they really exist.
Sometimes I wonder if they are only my creations, and the idea makes me feel uneasy. Very. Very uneasy.  
I have to see them. Soon!