My positiveness is made from regrets about my life. No- one can change the past.
I want to give them other meanings by my present or future. Like, I have spent 3 years in English-speaking countries but I don't think my English skills deserve the 3 years.
I realized that I was so spoiled and thoughtless. I should have studied English more before I decided to go there.
As the proverb says, It's no use crying over spilt milk. I don't waste my time with regrets, though I still have some. I need to get over this and want to be truly positive with the development of my English skills.