I want to tell you the first,
at that time,
Maybe my Serotonin was released in large quantities and my receptors took them up properly.
I didn't mean to release it in such large doses.                                                      

I said to my ex-boyfriend, " 20seconds~! 20seconds~!" like singing,
I mean claim for a hug.
but His answer was "Be quiet, Don't sing, Go back inside"
He crushed me again.

Meanwhile, when I was with Niko,
I felt happy all the time even I don't get Niko's hug.
Actually, I wanted it several times. but
I was satisfied just listening to his talking and stories.

I enjoyed seeing Niko and Speedy.
I feel something warm, and an automatic smile coming every time: )

　When I was inside,
Niko often called out to me from a window.
"Kullu! Come outside!!"

Once,(Actually many times)
I was crushed by ex-boyfriend's calling,
and I shut myself up in my room all day.
Also, another kind of huge anxious wave surged upon me.
I couldn't stop crying.

The next day, I said "Good morning" to Niko.
Niko asked me, "Where were you Kullu?"
and He made morning coffee for us.

Anyway, I miss his "Come Kullu! See Kullu!"
Sooooooooo much.

When he calls my name,
He has lots of kinds of modulation.
I like them all.

I was under orders to be inside for recent years.
so, Niko's words for me " come outside" was shaken my heart.