I am writing this English sentence for a long absence… As I haven't been making up one since January, I'm a little pazzled… Don't know what to write this blank space.

 Tomorrow, I'm supposed to have job-interview through online. I will absolutely get nervous… Even though my anxiety wasn't soothed at all, I have to do my best for my bright future. Having repeated what I have to say in the interview, maybe, It'll be alright. But I am not sure. When I say something, my voice is alway tremble because of the tension. Wanna overcome this weakness at all costs. Not only that, making smile on my face while the interview is taken place is also very hard and difficult.  What should I do?
 
 One of my firiends has already gotten the job offer. That fact really made me hasty… At the same time, I got the great jealous to her. I didn't wanna hear such a boast :(   I can still repeat and remember how she confidently told me that she has obtained the official job offer… sigh… I tried not to lose temper  emotionally in front of her, but I was truly frustrated from bottom of my heart.
Holding back my emotion and saying dissatisfaction was really stressful. What if I cannot pass the interview and obtain job offer, I won’t be able to get over… Scared of the future which nobody can expect…

 I know, I know that I ought not to whine, like this. However, I am afraid of invisible future, indeed. Wanna cry.